I recently composed an article about my inner competitiveness. If you didn’t read it, it’s okay. The thought I was trying to convey is this: the drive to be competitive dampers my quality of work. I’ve come to realize the deeper issue, though. It’s not just competitiveness.
I’m not mindful.
I’ve dabbled with meditation in the past, but I’ve never committed to it as a full-time practice. I recently joined David Cain’s Camp Calm. I’m only two days into the material, but I’m learning more about myself than I thought possible. The thought that stuck with me today is being mindful.
I’m guilty of not living in the moment.
- If I’m taking a shower, it’s to get clean so that I can get to the next thing.
- If I’m fixing a bug in a codebase, it’s to get it done so I can get to the next thing.
- If I’m eating dinner, it’s to stop being hungry to that I can get to the next thing.
The next thing is where I have been living my life, not in the present. I’m not enjoying life’s little moments. What if I did the following?
- Focus on the shower I’m taking, not the next thing I need to do. I can concentrate on the warm water and the joy I get from being clean.
- Take the time to understand, fix, and try to prevent that bug in the code. Instead of ravenously hunting it down, I could take steps to see how it got there.
- Enjoy every bite of my food and the company, if any. I could take the time to taste the food. I eat very fast, which is also a contributor to my constant weight gain.
The practice of meditation aside, mindfulness is something
I we can use more.